Why am i becoming numb to everything.
Why is every name.
Every comment
Every report
Every case
Every death.
Being blurred.
I cant tell who has died, who was arrested, who has jail time, who was released.
Seeing another black face with their head in the ground.
Makes me curl up in a ball.
I cant escape.
The reason these black men, women and children are killed is because of the skin them-
That I was born with.
The skin we wake up with.
The skin we walk around in.
Why do I need to be alert, awake, woke?
The pressures of being woke make my skin crawl.
I just know that i should be allowed to wear my hood, play with water guns, and walk around feeling safe.
I should be allowed to be free.
I should be allowed to live free.
Why do I need rules and regulations? Or instructions on the side of my box?
Why is the knowledge of how messed up the world is important for my state of well being?
Have you ever felt so numb that hearing the n word from your non black friend doesn’t hurt
anymore?
Have you ever felt so numb that someone putting down your skin color does not phase you?
Have you ever seen someone look just like you end up dead in the hands of so called heroes?
Have you ever felt so overwhelmed that your appearance could be the reason your life will be cut short?
Do you know how mentally, emotionally, and physically draining it is to feel like no one is on your side, that no one is listening, that no one is there?